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Post by Kabal on Nov 1, 2004 14:25:10 GMT -5
Not a problem my friend. While I do have anger toward this sick individual, I have been striving to forgive him, as I don't want to die with any hatred within me, And when fate decrees me to come with him into the ether, no one can accuse me of turning my back to anyone. And as for me having another true friend... I could say the same for you as well ^_^ I accept all, it is truly a joy I have, when I meet someone, whom has been shunned like I have been in the past, I without hesitation accept them, as is decreed by my tennets (My beliefs,,,) Honesty, Virtue, Compassion and Empathy, these are what I use to guide myself, and by Virtue I mean I do not commit any acts of desecration or violation, to put it simply, I do not desecrate anothers beliefs, nor do I force myself in any way upon them (This includes beliefs as well as physical body...) This standard I hold only myself to, as who am I to tell anyone what to believe? I am no preacher or minister, nor am I rabbi... I am no monk, so I simply tell others what it is I believe and what I do, if they wish to do the same it is up to them, if not then that too is their choice. I believe in God, but not the way the religions do. I do not see any ounce of hatred in God, towards anyone. Don't let my poetry that has been posted before let you think I am not a believer in God, but when religions condemn others for no good reason, I cannot take part, as that breaks many parts of my personal code of ethics. Which is why I will associate with people of any religion, but I will not become apart of it. And Mercury, you too seem like a fine individual. *Hugs* You shall never have any reason to feel alone, as I will never abandon any who need me in any way, whether it is simply someone to talk to while having coffee (Or in my case a cigarette...) Or a shoulder you need to help raise you up, as I will never forget your acceptance, As Comrades I will stand by you. Never forget this my friend, as I never will.
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Post by moonprince804 on Nov 1, 2004 19:04:30 GMT -5
I can't believe people would want to molest a child! It makes me MAAAAAAAAAD What a sicko! I hope he spends the rest of his life in jail. I'll be your friend, too, Kabal-chan!
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Post by Mercury on Nov 1, 2004 19:33:38 GMT -5
Not a problem my friend. While I do have anger toward this sick individual, I have been striving to forgive him, as I don't want to die with any hatred within me, And when fate decrees me to come with him into the ether, no one can accuse me of turning my back to anyone. And as for me having another true friend... I could say the same for you as well ^_^ I accept all, it is truly a joy I have, when I meet someone, whom has been shunned like I have been in the past, I without hesitation accept them, as is decreed by my tennets (My beliefs,,,) Honesty, Virtue, Compassion and Empathy, these are what I use to guide myself, and by Virtue I mean I do not commit any acts of desecration or violation, to put it simply, I do not desecrate anothers beliefs, nor do I force myself in any way upon them (This includes beliefs as well as physical body...) This standard I hold only myself to, as who am I to tell anyone what to believe? I am no preacher or minister, nor am I rabbi... I am no monk, so I simply tell others what it is I believe and what I do, if they wish to do the same it is up to them, if not then that too is their choice. I believe in God, but not the way the religions do. I do not see any ounce of hatred in God, towards anyone. Don't let my poetry that has been posted before let you think I am not a believer in God, but when religions condemn others for no good reason, I cannot take part, as that breaks many parts of my personal code of ethics. Which is why I will associate with people of any religion, but I will not become apart of it. And Mercury, you too seem like a fine individual. *Hugs* You shall never have any reason to feel alone, as I will never abandon any who need me in any way, whether it is simply someone to talk to while having coffee (Or in my case a cigarette...) Or a shoulder you need to help raise you up, as I will never forget your acceptance, As Comrades I will stand by you. Never forget this my friend, as I never will. I can totally understand you. In fact we have a lot in common. You are a very strong and brave individual. You have told this whole forum about what has happened to you as a child, and is still a burden on you till this day. You have a strong will and spirit. These are things that I take high respect for. It is really nice to be able to meet some more people like this, for there are not too many in this world. We could get to know each other, and hopefully I can be just as good as a friend that you are, and going to be. I do consider myself a very loyal person. All of my friends say that I am a very nice person to talk to, and some even go on to say that when they see me, they see a white light flowing from within me. Overall, I think I might have found someone in my hometown. A man who I will become friends with, hopefully at the least. Please wish me luck guys, even though if you are against the idea. Please at least wish me the best.
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Post by Kabal on Nov 1, 2004 19:57:09 GMT -5
I wish you the best of luck, friend. No one should be forced into islation, I myself have no friends where I live, and I have lived here for a year. (Oklahoma) But I have come to accept my physical isolation, but make connections to people over the phone or internet (I still keep in touch with my friends from High School)
Posted by: moonprince804 Posted on: Today at 19:04:30 I can't believe people would want to molest a child! It makes me MAAAAAAAAAD What a sicko! I hope he spends the rest of his life in jail. I'll be your friend, too, Kabal-chan! Yeah, He was ten when he did that to me, he was my brothers best friend for a long time, my brother didn't know, and neither did anyone else. And as for you being my friend, the more the merrier ^_^ All you need to know is just be honest with me and we will get along fine. Ask Mercury to give you a link for a pic of me.
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Post by Mercurius on Nov 1, 2004 20:27:44 GMT -5
WOW I have no words for that thing your brother's friend did to you many years ago....... You really are a wonderful person... and like mercury I too have many things in common with you, my beliefs, the loneliness...... I can understand you, and let me tell you something, you are someone worth my respect.... and you can count with me for anything
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Post by RAPTOR 9:48 on Nov 4, 2004 11:36:52 GMT -5
kabal... you've touched me. and thats hard to do, even for a master poet, a heartful musician, and a preacher combined. your boundless forgivness is astounding, where you would forgive, I would let the malice consume me and drive me to insanity beyond what is dictated by my family's bloodline(to the world we're all crazy, but it's what makes my family fun). I'm starting to womder if you're the second comming of christ(though to the muslums the second comming was muhamed). if you are the second comming of christ then show mercy, I am but a humble man whom is consumed by vengence. I too know of scorne, and the pain it brings, you're a bigger man than I'll ever be kabal, remember that. and I NEVER EVER say that about anyone but god and jesus. you're a better man than I'll ever be Kabal, you are blessed with forgivness. maybe if ya move to Massachusetts we can play video games together?
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Post by Kabal on Nov 4, 2004 20:23:54 GMT -5
kabal... you've touched me. and thats hard to do, even for a master poet, a heartful musician, and a preacher combined. your boundless forgivness is astounding, where you would forgive, I would let the malice consume me and drive me to insanity beyond what is dictated by my family's bloodline(to the world we're all crazy, but it's what makes my family fun). I'm starting to womder if you're the second comming of christ(though to the muslums the second comming was muhamed). if you are the second comming of christ then show mercy, I am but a humble man whom is consumed by vengence. I too know of scorne, and the pain it brings, you're a bigger man than I'll ever be kabal, remember that. and I NEVER EVER say that about anyone but god and jesus. you're a better man than I'll ever be Kabal, you are blessed with forgivness. maybe if ya move to Massachusetts we can play video games together? I am truly honored you feel that I am a good man, as I feel like a demon, I too have felt Malice, to this day, but I express it in non-violent ways... but it is hard... As a man accidently broke my mothers arm in three places with a door in a Mcdonalds... she now has a chronic nerve disorder that will force agony into her for life... just a slight breeze blowing upon her left hand and forearm, and it feels like it is on fire... When she is asleep, she cries for someone to help... It is truly the most horrifying thing I have ever heard in my life... it makes my soul go cold... Truth be told, if I knew who the guy was that did this to her... I probably would have destroyed him in the most vile, painful, slow way I could ever imagine... (Think the Hell-raiser movie series type stuff) As far as Christ goes, I am not even close... LOL, as Christ did great things, I can only hope that can help a few people in my life-time. Jesus worked as hard as he was able... whereas I can't even hold down a job, but I do help people when I can, to the best of my ability, so i guess that is what counts. But I feel so much paranoia, Depression (Think burning in an emotional lake of pure fresh squeezed agony and you get the picture...) And above all, just an over-all sense of oddness. Plus I have committed sins as well. So I am just your below-avarage human, with an above-avarage heart, lol. Since I know Agony, I strive to not spread it, and to help soothe those already in agony, through acceptance, compassion and empathy, and above all, knowing that love has many faces, not just romance, but that of Family Love, and as such, we are all family. We are all descended from the same cosmos. And as such, I love everyone with all of my heart, no matter who you are, where you are from, what you believe in, Why you exist, or when you existed, we are all, simply family. But this is simply an observation, made by many... I practice what I preach, I make no false claims of greatness, as I am no higher than any other person, and above all, I treat others the way I want to be treated, and that way is with sincere compassion, so, that is how I treat others, LOL. And as far as Moving to Massachusetts(SP? Can't remember, lol, Sorry ^_^; After I get to know you, maybe I could move in with you, so long as you know I can't have a job due to many disabilities I suffer from, but I can do some housework, LOL, you probably think I am kidding now, but just you see, I am dead serious. And also, what Games are you interested in? I am an Ex- Legacy of Kain fanatic, I am getting Halo 2, Star wars:Republic Commando, Predator:Concrete jungle, And Darkwatch. (After Halo 2 I am hoping to get these, LOL, as I have to rely on the generosity of others Also a friend of mine is getting me Fable) Can you tell all I have is an X-Box? LMAO Anyway, I look forward to getting to know you. A few words of advice...I am easy to send into a deep dark depression... I don't forgive someone only if absolutely necessary... (I won't forgive if I keep getting hurt needlessly, such as the case of my ex-girlfriend, lol) I smoke, but not alot (Cigarettes only... cheap ones, lol) I don't drink to get drunk, only to get a buzz going, and only occasionally...) I listen to Hard Rock, Hate Brittney Spears (Okay, I have been trying to quit hating her, but she keeps giving me a reason to...LOL) That is about all I can think of off the top of my head, lol. this is also for anyone else who is thinking about becoming a friend of mine, lol, this is the type of guy I am. A gaming philosopher who can't work, smokes, suffers from extreme depression with a hair trigger, Who wants to move out of his parents place (They have enough trouble already...) and into a friend's place, a friend who can accept all of his foibles, if this sounds like nirvana to you (And I highly doubt it, lmao) Then get to know me and we will see. Also, in case someone doesn't know, I am straight, so, if anyone is thinking of asking me out (As I doubt a girl would give me a second let alone first glance, LOL...) sorry, I am flattered, but I am straight. Also, I don't descriminate in who I consider a friend, just as long as you treat people nice, then you are A-Okay in my book. Also, incase you haven't noticed, I tend to babble like the niagra falls... You have been warned ^_^;;
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Post by Eminem on Nov 4, 2004 20:36:30 GMT -5
I like girls
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Post by Oblivion Sora on Nov 7, 2004 21:58:42 GMT -5
WHOA!!!!!!! wat is this???
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Post by moonprince804 on Nov 8, 2004 19:15:56 GMT -5
kabal... you've touched me. and thats hard to do, even for a master poet, a heartful musician, and a preacher combined. your boundless forgivness is astounding, where you would forgive, I would let the malice consume me and drive me to insanity beyond what is dictated by my family's bloodline(to the world we're all crazy, but it's what makes my family fun). I'm starting to womder if you're the second comming of christ(though to the muslums the second comming was muhamed). if you are the second comming of christ then show mercy, I am but a humble man whom is consumed by vengence. I too know of scorne, and the pain it brings, you're a bigger man than I'll ever be kabal, remember that. and I NEVER EVER say that about anyone but god and jesus. you're a better man than I'll ever be Kabal, you are blessed with forgivness. maybe if ya move to Massachusetts we can play video games together? What in the world is a malice?
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Post by Eminem on Nov 8, 2004 21:27:35 GMT -5
look it up on goolgle
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Post by RAPTOR 9:48 on Nov 9, 2004 10:36:09 GMT -5
Mailce is a great feeling of hatred and loathing. it's that feeling you get when you seriously wish someone would just die in as excrutiating a manner as possible. a really negative emotion, but after watching someone you have malice for die, you feel regretful of thinking that. I havent felt that regret yet though. Kabal, you do sound like an average person with a great heart, your self description is that is Ace Ventura in the begining of when nature calls. broken, but healing. I got plenty of disabilities too, so I cant hold a job. do you get disabilities checks? no job, disabilities that prevent you from getting a job, are all you need. I dont tolerate use of the spanish language due to the numaraous popular devil refrences, and Mexican wrestling is done with cowardly masks instead of face to face like real men. I've a lot of convictions, and I'm real stubborn. now to the VGs... Xboxes are being recalled because microsoft lost money on a lawsuit(I saw it, but microsoft took it off to cover it up). I saw some clips from Halo 2, I didnt like it. Star Wars Republic Commando looked like a solid FPS, no need to change weapons, but you had to work a whole squad, like in the N64 release of rainbow 6, but without the whole pre mission map/ movement thinggy. never heard of predator: concrete jungle, darkwatch, I'm not familiar with it but it sounds familiar, and fable... I keep forgetting, isnt that where your choices determine your characters appearence? I'm a gamecuber, been loyal to nintendo since I was a baby. games on my wishlist are WWE Day of Reconing, Def Jam Fight for New York, Custom Robo, Jedi Knight 2: Jedi Outcast, Tales of Symphonia, Red Faction 2, legend of zelda the four swords, the new darker legend of zelda title, and maybe a GBA SP(flame color) withpokemon Fire Red, pokemon Ruby, all yugioh titles, gundam seed battle assault, harvest moon friends of mineral town, legend of zelda the four swords(there's a GC version, and a GBA version I'm sure, I havent checked though.). I'm a nintendo nut, and I have my own yugioh deck. I would like a sweetheart, but I havent been able to look hard enough... Gaming in general: I have a yugioh deck, powerful rare cards, but my deck isnt perfected yet, there's a few cards I need to perfect it. I can build a great team in pokemon, I just need the right stuff to get my roster set(in Ruby, Saphire, Fire Red and Leaf Green you need a certain item to be able to enter a place to catch Mewtwo and other Rare pokemon, damn!), cuz Mewtwo is in my star roster. I'm still novice in fighting games like Mortal Kombat, but a good deal better in DBZ Budokai, and if there was an SM game on Gamecube I'd rule in it. I hope that an SM game on a nintendo console today runs with a Tales of Symphonia engine, free roaming, but random battles throw you into real time fights where you use a selected senshi to lead the team, with bonus EXP for no flaws in a senshi plan. Sexual prefrence stuff: I'm straight, and I meet a lot of girls, I can meet girls anywhere, but I end up stupified when I try flirting, I either say the wrong thing, get too posessive, or I dont seem to understand. I dont know what I kept doing wrong, but all I ask from a womanin a relationship is that she dont cheat on me, she remains honest, and shows sincerity. sorry to seem to babble but I've had a lot to say too.
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Post by Kabal on Nov 10, 2004 10:57:56 GMT -5
LOL, not a problem, no, I don't get a disability check, at least hopefully not yet... I have been turned down once, and we are re-applying. And yes, Malice is an extreme form of hatred. As for yugi-oh, I have a decdk, but it isn't that powerful, lol, as I am too broke to get the good cards, so I just keep them because they have excellent art. And as for girls, lol, they just don't seem interested, lol. I haven't pursued for the simple fact that I am tired of chsing something that isn't there (At least not yet...) As for my attitude of life, I could be best described as a monk. But unlike Ace Ventura, I am not just grabbing at feint relief, I follow what I believe. To quote the Static-X song, "The Only" "The only thing I understand is what I feel..." And as such, honesty is my language, if you have seen the movie Liar Liar with Jim Carrey, I can't lie, as it causes my conscience to attack my mind and heart, so I learned early on to be as truthful as possible. You seem like a good man, keep on doing what makes your life calls you to. ^_^
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Post by RAPTOR 9:48 on Nov 11, 2004 12:34:30 GMT -5
my life tells me to play my VGs, keep in touch with my soft side, and seek a woman. other than that, I'll use my imagination to write new fics. I got one in writing(partially, but I'm finding the rest), and I know where to find good yugioh cards for cheap, and how to get them by luck. Ebay has plenty of good yugioh cards for auction, I think my brother got a card for a penny, and thats a LOT of quality for a dollar, especially if it's a whole set of cards like 20 cards. another way, the by luck way is through purchasing boosters. only 12 dollars for a starter deck of 50 cards, I dont know how much booster packs cost. I recomend the most recent like Labarynth of nightmare for the Masked Beast ritual and monster.
my Tyrant Dragon cost $10 without S&H. remember, the higher the monster star level, the more hunted it is, especially a monster like Blue Eyes Ultimate Dragon which hasnt been released yet, but has been out for a long time in Japan, whats up wit dat!? my brother and I have been looking for BEUD since it debuted on yugioh, and yet upperdeck STILL hasnt printed an english version of the Blue Eyes Ultimate Dragon!*smashes a wall with angry fists* whats taking them so long!?
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Post by Mercury on Nov 19, 2004 10:56:22 GMT -5
It really does not seem that we have a lot of homosexual and bisexual folks here. Lol
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